Butterflies in my stomach...

Halloween sucked ass for me...I had to work. Once again I have two jobs...YES! Two paychecks! MY FAVORITE! LMAO! Ugh!

Anyways

Got in an arguement with Alan. *tear*

I wish he knew how I feel. I want a relationship but not right now. I'm having too much fun hanging out with random guys that I run into. *NOTE: I do not get involved in any...I repeat ANY PHYSICAL act with them*

It's hard balancing the act of wanting to be with someone and wanting to have fun with a guy! Can't a girl just get her groove on!? LMAO!

Anyways

I love life...

I laugh...

Everything...going A. O. K!

*sigh*

I've been going out and hanging out with ____________. I feel bad because I know there is something there but who knows what it is....I dont know if its just lust or if its actual feelings that ____________ feels. Who Knows? All I know is that I am going to use __________ like ____________used me....see if ___________ likes it!?

Emily and I have our own language and its great! LMAO! Good times! Well I shall be off....I have phone call I should be taking....I'm a busy girl...what can I say? LMAO! jk!

LOVE,

Allyson

*muah*

How do you feel today?: calm

What I'm jamming out to right now...: Faith Hill "like we never loved at all"

"Like We Never Loved At All"

You never looked so good
As you did last night
Underneath those city lights
There walking with your friend
Laughing at the moon
I swear you looked right through me
But i'm still living with your goodbye
And you're just going on with your life

[chorus]
How can you just walk on by
Without one tear in your eye
Don't you have the slightest feelings left for me
Maybe that's just your way
Of dealing with the pain
Forgetting everything between our rise and fall
Like we never loved at all

You, i hear you're doing fine
Seems like you're doing well
As far as i can tell
Time is leaving us behind
Another week has passed
And still i haven't laughed yet
So tell me what your secret is
To letting go like you did, like you did

[chorus]

Did you forget the magic
Did you forget the passion
Did you ever miss me
Ever long to kiss me

[chorus]

You, you never looked so good

*Just thought I'd let you know what my favorite song is right now....*ponders*...

Well I shall go....

-Allyson

How do you feel today?: confused

What I'm jamming out to right now...: Faith Hill "like we never loved at all"

Hmmm...Let me think what is there to say...

Absolutely nothing...

*shrugs*

Well yesterday Alan called me asking me if I knew some guy from last year that I had talked to...*shrugs* LAST YEAR?! I barely even remember my name...LMAO...so now Alan is mad because everyone (so he swears) knows an Allyson and why I have the nickname "bow wow"...Brandy knows why...LMAO? I thought I left that name behind...oh well...I figured he had nothing to be ashamed of...

Oh yeah Brandy...I know we were suppose to get together for our lunch date but I had school on Thursday...Sorry ma'am. But for sure some time later on this week...I promise..lol.

Anyways

Life is going pretty good..so is the love life and so is the school life....

This guy in my math class is freakin halarious...too bad hes 22...wait...Justin M. is 22...it's ok.

Yeah seems like Justin M. lied to me about his age...figures...like Brandy said..."our whole relationship was based on lies"

WAIT

I dont care...

I work tomorrow...*hint for brandy*...since you stalk me and all...i'll be at Disney...so stop by...lol.

Gotta Go..talking to Emily...

"Peace Out"

-Kip

How do you feel today?: amused

What I'm jamming out to right now...: Emily talking

So life lately hasn't been as great as it could be.

Alan and I are still talking and well its yet to become a "thing" which isn't a bad thing at all. I like the way Alan and I are. Sometimes I feel like the guy in this relationship...I don't want any attachments but I want the love...lol...I want my cake and eat it too! He wants to date but I want to keep it like the way it is now.

Justin M...What could I say about him..He's a total guy and acts like an asshole but somehow I'm attracted to a guy like that. I can't help but want to be with him. My mom brought thsi particular issue up about Justin M. She said he was ashamed of me...ASHAMED? First of all, We're just friends with privlages...Second, I make the plans...Third, I choose to hang out at night and not during the day. So do I give him the chance to be ASHAMED? At first I believed my mom's brain washing talk but then I realized that I choose what we do when we hang out and all I want to do is make out and fondle eachother. Is it worng? NO. I have no attachments. But then again, he's never introduced me to his parents, friends, or anyone else he knows. ODD? Who knows? GUYS=assholes.

Anyways. Continuing with my job situation. Working at Disney...Almost done with Old Navy...and well I want another job because making 80 dollars every two weeks doesn't even cover the toilet paper I use to blow my nose. lmao.

Emily was telling me how good I have it with Alan and that I should take advantage of what I have with him and forget about Justin M. all together.

Well I shall go...Alan just called me.

-Allyson

How do you feel today?: giggly

What I'm jamming out to right now...: Alan talking to me

So I haven't updated in a long ass time....*shrugs* sometimes I see no point in it but when I'm done updating a sense of relief come over me...*shrugs* I know.

Anyways

Alan is still in my life....Thats a really good thing.

Roberto comes in and out of my life whenever he pleases...*shrugs*..What else can I do?

Justin M....*sigh* what else could I say about him...every now and then.....

I got Tabaree's number...lmao...Brandy you should talk to him...lol...remember the situation with Bryce...lmao. Oh man good times.

I've been working my little heart out and going to school full-time...yeah it sucks ass but I have to do it to pay my bills...*sigh*

I've been thinking about how I need to be focused on working and going to school and saving up money for all of my road trips that we (Emily and I) have planned...lol...like Denver, CO. But we have see about that one...lol.

Well I have to go...I have to work tomorrow and I need my sleep...lmao...shit...not even sleep can help me relax...ha ha ha ha ha.

TOO MUCH! *giggles*

-Victoria....Man thats an ugly name...but I used it just for you-know-who! *winks*

How do you feel today?: confused

What I'm jamming out to right now...: George Strait "Write this down"

Well today is sunday...did everyone go to church today? lol.

So today was my uncles birthday...very kool.

I saw my baby cousin...awwww...he's so cute....*sigh*

Anyways Emily spent the whole weekend with me....very kool.

I worked friday night.....*shrugs*

Been talking to Alan....

Been talking to Robert R. alot...

Been texting Justin M...alot...

Haven't spoken to Roberto in a while...*tear*

Anyways.

I work all week and go to school Tues. and Thursday...yuck. though I have met some pretty nice guys there...hmm....but none that I would date...lmao...

So anyways...

I want to hang out with Robert R. next weekend but we'll see what happens.

And Justin M. too but we'll see how that goes.

Anyways.

I shall go...I have CSI marathon to get ready for....*jumps up and down*

Excited, (geeky)

Allyson

PS. when life gives me lemons, I make beef stew...

I love ANDY MILINOKIS!

How do you feel today?: geeky

What I'm jamming out to right now...: Andy Milinokis show

She take my money when I'm in need
Yea she's a trifflin friend indeed Oh she's a gold digga way over town
That dig's on me

[Chorus:]
(She did me wrong
Now I aint sayin she a gold digger
(When I'm Need)
But she aint messin wit no broke niggaz
(She did me wrong)
Now I aint sayin she a gold digger
(When I'm need) but she aint messin wit no broke niggaz get down girl go head get down
(I gotta leave) get down girl go head get down
(I gotta leave) get down girl go head get down
(I gotta leave) get down girl go head

[Verse 1:]

Cutie the bomb
Met her at a beauty salon
With a baby louis vuitton
Under her underarm
She said I can tell you
ROC I can tell by ya charm
Far as girls you got a flock
I can tell by ya charm and ya arm but I'm lookin for the one have you seen her
My psychic told me she have a ass like Serena Trina, Jennifer Lopez, four kids
An i gotta take all they bad asses to show-biz
Ok get ya kids but then they got they friends I
Pulled up in the Benz, they all got up In
We all went to Din and then I had to pay
If you fuckin with this girl then you betta be payed
You know why It take too much to touch her.
From what I heard she got a baby by Busta
My best friend say she use to fuck wit Usher I dont care what none of yall say I still love her

[Chorus:]
(She did me wrong
Now I aint sayin she a gold digger
(When I'm Need)
But she aint messin wit no broke niggaz
(She did me wrong)
Now I aint sayin she a gold digger
(When I'm need) but she aint messin wit no broke niggaz get down girl go head get down
(I gotta leave) get down girl go head get down
(I gotta leave) get down girl go head get down
(I gotta leave) get down girl go head

[Verse 2:]
18 years, 18 years
She got one of yo kids got you for
18 years I know somebody payin child support for one of his kids
His baby momma's car and crib is bigger than his
You will see him on TV
Any Given Sunday Win the Superbowl and drive off in a Hyundai
She was suppose to buy ya shorty TYCO with ya money
She went to the doctor got lypo with ya money
She walkin around lookin like Michael with ya money
Should of got that insured got GEICO for ya moneeey If
you aint no punk holla
We Want Prenup WE WANT PRENUP!,
Yeaah
It's something that you need to have
Cause when she leave yo ass she gone leave with half
18 years, 18 years
And on her 18th birthday he found out it wasn't his

[Chorus:]
(She did me wrong
Now I aint sayin she a gold digger
(When I'm Need)
But she aint messin wit no broke niggaz
(She did me wrong)
Now I aint sayin she a gold digger
(When I'm need) but she aint messin wit no broke niggaz get down girl go head get down
(I gotta leave) get down girl go head get down
(I gotta leave) get down girl go head get down
(I gotta leave) get down girl go head

[Verse 3:]

Now I aint sayin you a gold digger you got needs
You dont want ya dude to smoke but he can't buy weed
You go out to eat and he cant pay yall cant leave
There's dishes in the back, he gotta roll up his sleeves
But why yall washin watch him
He gone make it into a Benz out of that Datson
He got that ambition baby look in his eyes
This week he moppin floorz next week it's the fries
So, stick by his side I know his dude's ballin but yea thats nice
And they gone keep callin and tryin
But you stay right girl
But when you get on he leave yo a** for a white girl

Get down girl go head get down
Get down girl go head get down get down girl go head get down get down girl go head (let you play that back)

Question: Where are all the rich cute guys...lmao. Just kidding. I ain't no gold digga! lmao! I crack myself up!

Jeffery's Entry really got me thinking about love....

*ponders*

And Eric's entry too...life is short so live it up!

*giggles*

*sighs*

Lately I've become really negative towards things and people. Its sad. I know. I can't help it. I was second guessing the thought of putting my feelings on here because I know that some people get pleasure from my pain. lol. "don't laugh at me, dont call me names, don't get your pleasure from my pain" Funny...its a song for those of you who are lost. But then I realized, when do I ever consider anybody else when I write in this thing...its a journal. To me...for me. lol.

Anyways.

I think I would write more in this if certain people didn't read. Its so hard to express myself and my feelings now. I have no clue why though.

Oh yeah..I work with lauren carter now. Isn't that crazy? Sorry. Just thought I'd let you know...not that you care or anything. lol.

Its funny how LJ is humanized for me.

Well I shall go...I think I'm going to update myspace.com...I feel more comfortable updating there.

Bye

Allyson

How do you feel today?: sad

What I'm jamming out to right now...: George Strait "She'll leave you with a smile"

Hmmmm....la la la la la la la......George Strait rocks my world.

I love him. (George Strait)

So anyways.

I am working two jobs now...and going to school. Welcome to the adult world. lol.

Phone. Boat. Same thing Alan. lol. *smiles*

Anyways.

I watched the VMA's today and well it was my sister and I were watching it and it was freakin fun. We were singing to different songs and well it was fun just hanging out.

Good Times.

I just got off the phone with Alan. *sigh*

And now I'm on the phone with Emily. *wonderful* lmao. Just Kidding.

So I haven't had any time to breath or pick my nose. lol. Just kidding up tight people.

Emilys Advice for the day is:

"Don't read Allyson's Livejournal because it will make you go crazy and shit your pants"

Thank You that was very inspirational.

LMAO.

Emily says "wait until tomorrows advice session."

LMAO.

Alwasys can count on Emily to put a smile on my face. lol.

Thats why we're friends. lol.

Emily says I should admit one weird thing that I do everytime I update my livejournal.

So here it goes....lol.

I admit that I sing to Emily in a really bad voice just to piss her off...

LMAO.

I'm ending this entry...why? because emily makes me want to SHART aka (SHit+fART=SHART)

I gotta go pee. (man, I sound like brandy, jk)

-Allyson

How do you feel today?: giggly

What I'm jamming out to right now...: "You make me want to SHART"

So school started on Tuesday for me...WHOOPPEEYY! NOT! lol. Well Its ok....and well tomorrow is another day of classes but I have only two tomorrow.

On a sadder note:

Alan has been trying to call me but he calls too late and so I'm asleep by the time he calls and so I havent talked to him in a while. I am so sad. *tear*

Roberto called me yesterday and we talked. I have to thank him for the favor hes going to do for me..Thanx much roberto!

I work friday and Sat. Whooohooo! not! lol!

Oh yeah I bought my Precalculus book today! USED:$100...can you believe that shit! Ughgghh...I hate buying my own books. I would rather spend my money on clothes! or shoes! Yeah.

USED COLLEGE PRECALCULUS BOOK: $100

NIKE SHOX GO: $100

CELL PHONE BILL: $50

PAYING WITH YOUR OWN MULA: PRICELESS!

Uggghh...I love it!

I've been talking to Brandy alot...hmmm...

To Brandy: I hope things get better and take care of yourself...so when you get to El Paso...I can see the baby! lol!

Well I shall be off...I have class tomorrow at seven in the fucken morning! BLAH!

Sad,

Allyson

How do you feel today?: sad

What I'm jamming out to right now...: J.Lo "Dear Ben"

Roberto and Alan are leaving today at midnight back to Vegas...and I am sad. *tear* *sniff*

Anyways

I worked again today and I learned so much about this guy named Mike. What a darling.

I finally bought my nike shox. I hope Alan is proud of me...lol. FINALLY! And they are green and blue!

I was going to go shopping before I went into work but I was too tired and running late. *blah*

Well as soon as Brandy gets back into town we can hang out. Finally! Then I get to see my god child. LMAO. Just Kidding Brandy! *smiles*

*tear* Roberto just called me and told me that hes leaving already. I am so sad. I'm not going to be able to talk to him as often as I do now.

I am watching CSI as I type in my lovely journal. lol. I love this show. *jumps up and down*

Anyways

I shall be off...I have nothing more to say.

To Alan...I miss you. *tear* Why haven't you called or sent me my birthday card!

To Roberto....Russia! And I miss you already!

I love this song.

Artist/Band: Allan Gary
Lyrics for Song: Best I Ever Had

So you sailed away into a grey sky morning
Now I'm here to stay, love can be so boring
And nothing's quite the same now
I just say your name now.

But it's not so bad
You're only the best I ever had
You don't want me back
You're just the best I ever had.

So you stole my world, now I'm just a phony
Remembering the girl leaves me down and loney
Well send it in a letter
Make yourself feel better.

But it's not so bad
You're only the best I ever had
You dont want me back
You're just the best I ever had.

And it might take some time to patch me up inside
but I cant take it so I, I run away and hide
And I might find in time that you were always right
You're always right.

So you sailed away into a grey sky morning
Now, I'm here to stay, love can be so boring
Was it what you wanted?
Could it be I'm haunted?

But it's not so bad
You're only the best I ever had
You dont want me back
You're just the best I ever had.

You're just the best I ever had

*sigh*

Thinking,

Allyson

How do you feel today?: hurt

What I'm jamming out to right now...: Maroon 5 "Shiver"

Today I've beern really moody and really annoyed by everyone around me....Ugggghh...lol. *sigh* It feels so good to type what I feel. Its wierd.

Anyways

My cell phone bill got in and well lets just say I don't have to hear any bitching because I'm paying it...SUCKERS! Yeah now try telling me what I can and can't do. LMAO! Yeah but it feel so good to talk on my cell and text on my cell without my parents watching my back and complaining. FINALLY! *freedom bells ringing*

I'm sad because I can't find my Disc one from George Straits 50 number one hits. *tear* I hope I find it soon.

I work tomorrow and I get paid tomorrow! YES! And tomorrow....I'm going with *cough*emily*cough* lol. Yeah we're going to have so much fun...wooohooo! Not in a lesbian way either!

Anyways

*hmmmmm* *pondering* *thinking*

Well I think I'm addicted to myspace.com....*sigh* how sad. But I update in LJ before I update over there. I will always stay true to you, my dear LJ! LMAO! uggghhh...i hate me...lol.

Anyways

Well I work tomorrow...and then I'm getting off and going out! Yes!

And that means that  I should be going to bed.

*night*

-Allyson

How do you feel today?: sick

What I'm jamming out to right now...: J.Lo "Still"

Somehow I can never sleep or go to sleep early...NOT SURPRISING!

Insomnia sucks my (BJI&*(EY*D&*#&*(....

Today was nothing out of the normal....same old, same old.

This coming weekend I plan to chill with Emilia...*ha*

And then next weekend I plan to hang with Andy and Ms. D so we celebrate my birthday.

So I have converted to myspace.com. *guilty* I feel so bad when I post and I don't post in LJ. *tear* I'm sorry LJ, you've been so good to me but its time for me to move on to bigger and better things. *giggles* Oh yeah and Tim (the asshole) is my only friend. *tear* but its kool. I enjoy his acknowledgement.

So yeah I'm still talking to Alan and Roberto but they leave in like five days....and well what can I say...I'm sad. I know they're going to call but I can't help feel like they're so far away...wait...they are going to be far away. Man. It's going to be four years or three and a half years of knowing ROBERTO. *sigh* It feels freakin weird. How sad.

Anyways

School starts like in a week and that always sucks but I'm ready to do the working and going to school gig. I am so ready for it. *jumps up and down*

Have I mentioned that I love my new laptop. *Jumps up and down again*

I tried setting up my printer today (only because Roberto inspired me to) but I need a cable connection first. *damn*

So yeah about Alan and I....

He fucked up already...

*laughs*

I know that it wasnt funny at the time or when he told me but I got over it and well he can do as he pleases.

Anyways.

I was thinking alot about different things in my past that have made me who I am today. *laughs* Its so funny how most of those times are of me being stupid and clumbsy. *rolling my eyes* One thing that sticks out in my mind would have to be...."ARE YOU SCARED....GOOD" That showed me how stupid kids are. LOL, Another thing would have to be Justin M. and I hanging out...that showed me how guys can be assholes. Hmmm..another time would be a middle school memory which involved Emily. Oh yeah how being around Dominic and Justin T. always got me into life threatening situations. Another memory would be driving around with Dominic and Jose and hesitating about going into fiesta. *laughs* good times. Hmm...Oh yeah the whole getting drunk in france thing helped me learn that....*shrugs* I don't know who cares what I learned from that. *laughs* I love how I've become so random. I get it from Roberto.

I have a new friend at work. Well I have lots of new friends. I have a friend named Nelson. Wait there's two Nelson's. I like them both (not like that). I have a friend named Mike. We're mean to eachother but its fun. I have a friend named Roy. He looked mean at first but he's really really nice and then there's Justin...He makes me laugh when he sings his little "fat guy in a little coat" song. *laughs* Then I have a friend named Roxy. She is so freakin funny. Well theres more people that I talk to but none of them stick out enough. Oh yeah one more. Devon. She is so nice and so ambitious. Sort of rubs off.

Well I think my insomnia is fading away.

Because I am so gangsta right now....

Peace out homie G! *giggles*

Allyson

How do you feel today?: Insomnia sucks!

What I'm jamming out to right now...: Justin Timberlake "Rock your body"

I hate life.

Not.

*sigh*

I had this really long update and well of course somehow it got lost. I hate that when it happens.

Let's see if I can remember what the hell I put on here.

Oh yeah I got A's in both of my summer classes. <<EXCTING!

*click* (lightbulb on) Oh yeah. i am so content with my life right now. My relationship with my parents is great. No problems..FINALLY! My friendship with Emily is good, we're hanging out as much as we can. Roberto and I are cool now...we got that settled. Thank god. Alan and I talk and he is always making me feel good. Last but not least, my relationship with my sista is pretty awesome. I love when my sister and I can spend time together and laugh our head off. She keeps me grounded and makes me realize that family is the most important thing in life.

Anways.

I'm thinking of trying myspace.com but who knows. Kidna scared. Lol. John told me that I was stupid for being scared and that myspace is better than xanga. Well he mentioned me getting one and now that brain has menitoned it...hmmm...I'm pondering the idea.

I worked today. *shrugs and sighs*

I never thought that working would be so hard. LOL. I am such a prima-donna. But it's kool workign there. The guys a funny and the girls are nice. Only thing is that everyone is always asking me if I like it or not. ALWAYS asking. Weird.

Well I'm tired and I.....well...I have nothing to do tomorrow. Hopefully we'll go to my Grandparents house. I want to see my baby cousin. He is so cute. *shriek* I am so excited.

Ouch...my head...oh crap...MY TUMOR is back. Great *sighs* *knocks on wood* hopefully it goes away.

In the words of the work force.

"I'm clocking out"

-Allyson

How do you feel today?: Talking to Roberto

What I'm jamming out to right now...: Maroon 5 "Through with you"

Man this guy is freakin hot.

-Allyson

Man, guys can give you LAME ASS excuses so many times...and I think thats why I was not focused on guys for a while. Uggghhh....I hate how they are so complicated and they say "girls are complicated"....NO WAY! Guys are ten times worse but who am I to say anything....ha ha ha ha....feels good to let frustration out...*sigh*

So today I went to hang out at Clint PD because my gampy is the chief and well my dad and uncle went to go hang out with him and well now that I spend non stop time with my dad I go with him everywhere. So yeah. Hanging out with my familia was pretty fun and its great when they get in fights and then ten seconds later everything's alright. HA...isn't funny how familia acts...*smiles* I heard my gampy say "fuck!" That was funny...he covered his mouth like a little kid...LMAO. Man. I am so grateful for him and my dad and my uncle. When I was little and I didn't go to school, I would spend all of my time with them. Good memories with all of them. They made me laugh when I was little and they can still to this day make me laugh. FUNNY!

Anyways.

I found a scorpion in my damn room on my ceiling. GROSS! I hate them...so tonight I'm sleeping in my sisters room....I'll be safe from scorpions in there. lol...NOT!

Emily called me every five seconds for help in registering...lol...ugggh...and I was asleep. I hate when people wake my LAZY ASS UP!  

Anyways.

I think my "theme" song for what I feel or I think what I have felt about certain people....I know its confusing...I'm confusing.

LeAnn Rimes "probably wouldn't be this way"

Got a date a week from Friday with the Preacher's son,
Everybody says he's crazy, I'll have to see
I finally moved to Jackson when the summer came,
I won't have to pay that boy to rake my leaves
I'm probably going on and on it seems I'm doing more of that these days

(Chorus:)
I probably wouldn't be this way
I probably wouldn't hurt so bad
I never pictured every minute without you in it,
Oh you left so fast,
Sometimes I see you standing there
Sometimes it's like I'm losing touch
Sometimes I feel I'm so lucky to have had the chance to love this much
God give me moments grace
Cause if I'd nevber seen your face
I probably wouldn't be this way

Momma says that I just shouldn't speak to you,
Susan says that I should just move on,
You oughta see the way these people look at me,
When they see me 'round here talking to this stone,
Everybody thinks I've lost my mind but I just take it day by day

(Chorus)

I probably wouldn't be this way,
I probably wouldn't hurt so bad,
I never pictured every minute without you in it,
Oh you left so fast,
Sometimes I see you standing there,
Sometimes I feel an angels touch
Sometimes I feel that I'm so lucky to have had the chance to love this much
God give me a moments grace
Cause if I'd never see your face
I probably woudln't be this way
I probably wouldn't be this way

Got a date a week from a Friday with the Preacher's son,
Everybody says I'm crazy, guess I'll have to see

I LOVE THIS SONG! It is so sad but it is so true.

So yeah. Well as one of my buddies would say.

I'm about to crash out. Peace.

-Allyson

How do you feel today?: Grossed out!

What I'm jamming out to right now...: LeAnn Rimes "Probably wouldn't be this way"

So today I woke up early but then I went back to sleep...lol...why do I kid myself? So yeah I actually woke up at 11:30 which isn't bad at all for my day. Then my dad and I went to go get the plates and stuff for the new truck and then we went to the bank and then to CHICO'S....I love that place. The place is so gross but man where can you get gross food like that at? Then the stupid Chico's ladies were robbing the resturaunt right infront of our eyes...lol...damn mexicans...then we went to the chiropracters...YUCK! Then my dad and I went to Ciliche's....It was a like a picture perfect...a dad and daughter having ice cream...good times...it will be remembered forever.*sigh*

Anyways I haven't updated for two days...I think but who's counting?

I was thinking about *Jonathon* (I know he hates that name but I like it for him). I can't help but miss talking to him. I know that Roberto told me to forget about Jonathon but I can't help think how funny and dorky he was.*sigh* I hope he reads this and calls me when he can hopefully before he leaves but it's kool if he doesn't. Just to let him know that I haven't forgotten about him. *sigh*

Roberto and I haven't talked, well we have but not like we used to...hmm...*ponders* I don't know why we haven't but I am sure it'll get better...hopefully. Roberto....I love you...LOL...but not like that! Like my big brother....*sighs*

I work tomorrow....*shrugs*

There's this guy that I think he's nice...well everyone is nice to me but he's "nice"....his name is carlos. He's really cool and funny. Thats exciting. lol.

Been talking to my old old old friend Michelle...lol...man what a party girl. If you want to party shes the one to go to...

Anyways I have nothing to update about...*tear*....but I sure as hell dont miss the DRAMA! Good luck to those who have it. just kidding. but seriously...may god be with you. amen.

So tomorrow I plan to get up at the ass crack of dawn to run with my dad....we'll see how that goes...

Well I shall say goodbye and make this entry five minutes because usually its three freakin hours long so.....

GOODBYE...<Just for Colin. LMAO!

-Allyson

How do you feel today?: thirsty

What I'm jamming out to right now...: Ying Yang Twins "Wait"

Today I got offered another job but since I couldn't give them an answer right away....they gave my job away...oh well....I guess it was meant for me to work at Old Navy! So yeah...I work this weekend...and once I get my pay check...I am so shopping at Old Navy and putting my discount to use!

Anyways.

Today my dad bought my mom a new truck...and soon I will get mine...yay!

I am so excited!

My dad and I spent the whole day together and really had some good talks...you know those heart-to-heart talks. We talked about Justin M. coming back into my life and what happend to make us stop talking and usually bad mouths all the guys I like or have interest in but not Justin M. Weird! So I told him most of the story and he just told me to be careful and be aware that he is still a guy and guys are freakin confusing! lmao! Aww....its days like this that make me appreciat my dad so much! Man. I love that man! lol! We talked about how things have changed and how we've grown as a family. It makes you appreciate how much you have now. *sigh* I think I'll remember this day forever...

Anyways.

I talked to Jeffery...thats always nice...poor guy! My heart goes out to Jeffery...but not in that way!

I'm talking to Colin as I type...he is so funny...talking about random shit.

Anyways.

Hmmm....I have no clue what else to say...oh wait...Madden 2006 is coming ou at midnight....that should be VERY exciting because every guy I know is camping out for the game...lmao...thats what I get for talking to a bunch of guys.

Well I changed my background....I hope everyone likes it...wait...I dont care...lmao!

Well I shall be off....man...everytime I update I take FOREVER and a fucken piece of pie to update....ughghghgh!

Goodbye.

-Allyson

How do you feel today?: DANDY!

What I'm jamming out to right now...: Maroon 5 "Must Get Out"